December 2011
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nausea
outside, dipped in reality,
everyone laughs at it-
move slowly so as not to be heard,
it sticks sometimes like sweat
-LL
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memof-fiti
graffiti of thoughts-
and so it began
so it was fated to end
with each step of the beginning
ok- forward,
a love of fate.
Kissing made me lose myself,
gone and never wanting to come back- to being alone. Sadness can be overcoming me, overcoming the circumstances and compounding our separation, lost when will we be together. You died the day you were overcome with doubt and its all the illusion...
November 2011
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Koonut- Kaliffee
There’s a folder with a love affair in it. All the letters that I had to respond to.
Mixed emotions can fill you quickly when your a romantic, and it was time that made me.
All the letters had dripped down my fingertips, all the words had perspired from my thoughts.
My mistakes were ours to share and this is the first time in my life that its happened.
It makes me feel so good to talk to you...
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there is no better,
death to me-
living dead, we were dying when we lived,
and trying to live when we were dead.
living for a long time meant dying for a long time,
when- death touched me once, it wasn’t my life- invulnerability was fading with time and transforming into inevitability
my power was my self destruction, my own death
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“Without words my thoughts were in my head.”
– LL.
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“That can very slightly change-”
– Allen Gregory
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“Certainties can be established with doubt.”
– LL.
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But set down.
This set down
This: were we led all that way for
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had evidence and no doubt. I had seen birth and death,
But had thought they were different; this Birth was
Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an...
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avry
It’s only a story. A safe way from what actually happened. Even if sounds real, its just a story, pretty vacant. Two boys, two girls and a curiosity to unleash the hidden. Never go into a house that isn’t yours when no one’s home. Never forget your tools in the graveyard if your digging up the dead. Sadness and the muck it brings about one, is nowhere in the forest of curiosity....
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“Tu ne me chercherais pas si tu ne me possedais.
Ne t’inquiete donc pas.”
– Blaise Pascal
1623-1662
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dt: exneo
when last we talked it wasn’t good-
and much can’t be said, other than…
your not the same person you used to be-
it is all different.
but what did you think-
where are we now and where were we then!
yes- it was so different and it seems,
so…long, ago- has time stopped?
No its sped up.
too many memories reflect this.
the yarn will soon unravel its self-
does it...
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Antes-
WE WERE TALKING,
when last we met it was after school-
can we talk?
about, anything and it could be this or that,
too many things to say and not enough to do,
when we were young we talked and wrote each other letters.
Why? you couldn’t recognize why?
you didn’t want-
It is too complicated-
when the speech is lost everything’s been defined,
you wrote me letters- you...
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gates
-the walls were always there just not constructed,
now they are surrounding & there is protection in isolation
-never did we think that being alone, an animal that craves interaction,
only to dominate, and own, may be in harmony when by itself.
own your thoughts and own their truth-
company was once thought to be the security of a future,
now its a self fulfilling prophecy, to become the...
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“There is no excellent beauty that hath not some strangeness in the proportion.”
– F. Bacon
1561-1626
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“The lucky die with company.”
– LL.
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forget everything i wrote
I can’t find the time to tell you
-there were moments that I want all to myself,
so many moments that could fill a book ,
and I never lied to you-
but I couldn’t tell your beauty
because my love came from caring and I cared so much for you
maybe your wrong,
but I can’t find the time to tell you,
and now the time has come,
time, was, is and now
I can’t find the time to tell...
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about me
my letters are just thrown together,
I just want you to know,
because I want to know,
and its a strange condition-
but I wanted to know
if you knew what I was writing,
because now I have a strange condition
forgetting,
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CHLOROPHYL
to you I bequeath all that I could have been ,
to you I bequeath the lessons of my sin ,
the obsolete beauty of an old fashioned way,
the desolate ugliness of currency
the here and now of that and then
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EW-
-You have followed others?
Never once could we do what we want just limited everything to a conformist halt, and monitored our every reaction. Followed the words of the old, followed the acts of the young. History is now telling us to be someone, and to act a certain way.
All the many influences and you haven’t been truthful with your self, and it’s not going to help when we...
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“To repeat to a man’s prejudice anything thaT escaped him in private...”
– D. Hume
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OLIVE
Olea europaea
restores energy when you are
physically and mentally
exahausted
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whatever
-only from the hate of the rules.
Sanity came from being punished for all my wrongs and hating everything that conspired against me.
Lawless and arrogance are seeds for destruction. Lies are the fragrant soil that nurtures its growth like manure. Fermented thoughts change form and you and me, are us and them. Rules ground. But only the rules that last are the firmest ground to center your self....
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“if you have
a preference,
voice it.
if you have
a question
ask it.
if you...”
– KRISTIN ARMSTRONG
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ILL EGO-
my love was
my betrayal,
its venom coursed
through veins of self hate,
my drug was love
loved my drugs,
it consumed as much as it did good,
little by little,
stakes are doubled
there is- only one way out
reason your addiction
its obvious-
the end is but a matter of time,
things will happen
hate will happen
too quick and too slow-
once upon a time,
love betrayed its addiction to hate.
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“-unreality-”
–
F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
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“Trouble is-
suggesting that there’s a right and wrong,
literary-”
– LL.
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“-too obvious to have any influence, because they must always, to every man,...”
– D.Hume
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Sentimentality
-humanity was outside, outside the world was filled with a reality that nauseated my senses. Love had torn me apart, again and again, I was left with the living embodiment of all the people in and out of my life. The wind was blowing me back now and the words were ringing in my head- take me away from here. Sympathy for humanity ,was not far from my grasp and still sadness surrounds me in the...
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ASPEN
populus tremula
replaces apprehension and
vague fears with a sense of
security and peace of mind
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OF JUSTICE
“Sometimes both utility and analogy fail and leave the laws of justice in total uncertainty.”
-D.Hume
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col-ander
your cynical about your cynicism
and you don’t need someone to affirm your cynicism to be cynical,
to deny merit in someones opinion is to deny your own merit,
so- you need affirmation of your skepticism
your opinion has as much merit as you allow others to have-
LL
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making things
an intimate collaboration.
It’s not my job to supply the answers that’s your task,
it’s my job to question your answer.
It’s an exercise of reality
it makes you strong,
LL
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EHS
zero people in my future,
still waiting, and I’m sitting right through the way,
just waiting ?
bug me later-
she’ll be here.
Really?
not in these words, in any-words?
who doesn’t like me as much as I think-
Do you miss me,
this isn’t our childhood,
would you bet your hands on it?
Thinking about It we can only realize that you are driving me crazy and
I would rather...
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“Watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you, because the greatest...”
– Roald Dahl
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“All IN GOOD TIME”
– CERVANTES
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EM,
It’s hard to be wrong when everybody’s right-
It’s hard to be right when everybody’s wrong,
LL.
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one sided sadness-
make it work-
sides had to be taken,
one or the other &-
another time was long gone,
a feeling of being chased made me turn-
the side of the building gave me a chance to catch my breath
but thoughts were racing, and they were scattered in my head-
make friends with your enemies?
it’s hard.
And,… you just might be there to see them fall apart.
It was luck that today was in my...
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stylized
lets see you try the water technique-
the sky is high the cloud is low
but my water technique is hard to beat.
-But the earth can absorb water.
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cranberry juice reminded me of her,
a long time ago we talked, over the phone, for hours,
nothing was said and everything between was understood,
nothing else mattered except for the present future,
and time was being lived day to day just as it should with youth-
her touch was first and defining in- every step through seconds in my life,
and I fought not to be captured, held anchored to a...
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future is present
-the time for the future is right now.
LL.
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being-different
Natural Born
-What kind of pies do you have?
well we got..um..
apple, pee-con, cherry, key lime.
-Which do you recommend?
well key lime’s great but,.. it’s an acquired taste.
-Well I ain’t had key lime pie in years.
when you had it did you like it?
-No. -but, that don’t mean much.
I was a completely different person back then.
Lets give that key lime pie a day in...
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A jacket made of broken glass is all looks,
He talked about the jacket and immediately the thought was that it had to be mine. To posses the objects of the other is to say- you see something of yourself in something else, or rather this is the part of you that you do not have/ posses and its just a matter of time before others desire what you have in themselves. So the story goes that time passed and then the opportunity to be someone else...
